21 July 2017 @ 01:24 pm
Paperwork headdesking: a simplified transcript.

Warnings for major complications of the 'bureaucracy is literally trying to kill you' sort, systemic transmisia & ableism & classism, capitalism devouring its young.

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FUCK FUCK FUCK. *sound effects of smashing things, ripping with vicious claws*

I'm going out. *doorslam*
 
 
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21 July 2017 @ 11:15 pm
Today's prompt is "nothing lasts forever".
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21 July 2017 @ 10:26 am
It's challenge time!

Comment with Just One Thing you've accomplished in the last 24 hours or so. It doesn't have to be a hard thing, or even a thing that you think is particularly awesome. Just a thing that you did.

Feel free to share more than one thing if you're feeling particularly accomplished!

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Current Mood: frantic
 
 
20 July 2017 @ 08:40 pm
This one character really hurts my heart in Strain. I mean, I know it's fiction, but he confronts his turned mother. Then he goes to an Indian restaurant where there's this woman he likes. Then her parents and this other character give him a shitty time til he leaves. Then his childhood hero (works in the Indian restaurant) treats him like a shitstain.

Like damn guys, you don't know what he just went through tonight! And all he did was tell your daughter to respect her mother because she'll miss her when she's gone!




I wish I had friends that were more into the outdoors/adventurous stuff. Jessica and Nick are more museum buddies.

I know, I know. I promised I wouldn't complain unless I didn't make friends while doing said things, instead of wishing they'd just like, randomly appear out of the ground. I'm working on it.

I also have Groupons for dance classes, so that gives me a few weeks of activity and something I'm interested in trying out without fleeing the country.

Uhm. I decided against the Himalaya trip in October (I'll use the credit to do it at another date.) It's too long a trip given what I'm trying to do this year. I really want to focus on the vocational things - e.g., the CNA course. Some of them have absolutely no leeway for taking up missed classes, so a two-week trip would be a bad idea. I may see about a shorter trip at some point, though.

I'll do local things I wanted to do this year, then use the credit to go next year. If I'm really lucky, by then I'll know someone I can invite so I'm not spending extra money to travel solo (though traveling solo sounds fun.)

... I hope I can learn paragliding this year.
 
 
21 July 2017 @ 12:00 am
Poems I Managed to Choke Out

Last Time - July 2017

Cemteries Untended )

Who )
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Untitled, 2010 )
 
 
20 July 2017 @ 11:34 pm
Let me tell you something about time:

Time isn't your friend.

Time ran out on you when you were sitting down to a nice dinner,
leaving you to pay a bill that somehow included two extra bottles of wine.

And may I remind you:
When you said you wished you had more time,
It turned up stick thin and starving,
turned the bananas black and the bread green
and shut off your morning alarm before sneaking out through the window.

Maybe it didn't take your last twenty dollars on the way out,
but it made you forget where you left your wallet.

When your best friend's birthday rolled around,
Time had nothing interesting to say for hours
The last one to leave the party
(Remember, it arrived an hour early, while you were still trying to get dressed
You had a million things to do
And then you also had to entertain the concept of Time
like some kind of existential crisis
that couldn't even be bothered to run the vacuum for you while it followed you from room to room.)
Its midnight date came and went while
Time droned on and on
and you looked around for any escape from the monotony.
You had to be rescued.

Time was a little kid dragging its feet
When all you wanted was to get from Monday to Friday
From a morning at work to an evening having fun
being young, being in love, being drunk, being new
But there it was
Making a ticking sound every second for no other reason than to make you
Very
Aware
Of
How
Slowly
It
Was
Moving, then
Slipping off behind some dumpsters on Friday afternoon, vanishing for the whole goddamn weekend and leaving you wondering where it went.

Time plays tricks on us all, but maybe you more than most.

It sure moved fast enough between spring and fall, too. You know:
When all you wanted was for time to stop
And maybe let you enjoy that vacation that you arranged down to the minute
Time delayed your flight, lost you your reservation, and spent the whole trip
Pretending to be an Olympic sprinter -
Ruined all your plans and
still
you wished you'd had more time.

Time was always running out, wearing thin, growing short, growing long, on your hands, on your mind, eating at you, fleeting, flowing, too much, too little, never exactly what you wanted.

Never enough.

I wish you needed me
Like you said you needed time.
 
 
20 July 2017 @ 07:17 pm
So, I signed up for the skydive in Oceanside. I want to try to do a group outing too, but I also decided this year I'm going to stop waiting for people to be available and do things I want to do, when I want to do them.

I'm excited because the last time I went skydiving I didn't video. Paid for it. But they forgot to turn the camera on. (I still got photos, though.)

Also, this time I can wear whatever I want, since I'm not on vacation. At the very least, I can not be wearing black socks on my bare legs.

Anyway, I thought, "I have the whole DAY off tomorrow (and Saturday I work in the afternoon) why don't I try something else as well?"

So... What else is on my list of things I've wanted to do?

I was trying to think about what I... Like I want to do. Really specifically me, nothing to do with what other people want to do.

I think I want to avoid rock-climbing for now. I want to climb, but mostly I want to climb for fitness reasons. I don't feel the urge to scale mountains the way my sister does. That's not my thing.

SCUBA takes too much time. I really want to do it, but I need to plan out trips, take other classes (I want to learn cave/wreck diving.) I'd like to get a case for my phone so I can take photos. (What a day. I don't need a waterproof camera. There are houses for iPhones.)

I want to do bungee jumping, but fitting that all into one weekend might be too difficult and/or expensive. (Also, it's something I'd like to do for the purpose of being certified.)

I'm thinking surfing or wind-surfing. I really want to do both (especially wind-surfing.)

But surfing might be easier because there are local lessons offered. I can't seem to find wind-surfing lessons. Plus, surfing I can do here any time. You have to find places/conditions for wind-surfing.




I'm not going to avoid co-workers, but I am going to do things on my own a while too, meet people in relation to the activity instead of work environment. I think that if I do the things I'm talking about, people will be more likely to take those plans seriously because they'll want to do them. (Well, maybe not for the hiking.)

Since I'm not working Saturday mornings now, I may also start trying to regularly do 5ks. I've really wanted to do that. And now I have Saturday mornings.




Okay so:

1. Surfing tomorrow morning.
2. Skydiving tomorrow afternoon.
3. 5k Saturday morning.
4. Photography Sunday.

BOOM. Plans set. I want to do wind-surfing really badly. But I think I want to learn something I can do just any old day ASAP.
 
 
20 July 2017 @ 04:49 pm
I booked a skydiving trip for tomorrow!!

I'd been waiting to go in Monterey (world's highest tandem dive) but I'll try later in the year.

I'm also thinking about surfing lessons. I'd been wanting to a while. But I have two days off this week.

Then I'm also trying to figure out where I want to take photos this weekend.
 
 
20 July 2017 @ 07:01 pm

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20 July 2017 @ 08:12 pm
Today's prompt is "leaving this place behind".
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20 July 2017 @ 01:12 pm
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[Image of a Cassini spacecraft model inside a black gimbal structure comprised of three concentric rings, mounted on a plexiglass stand and sitting on the corner of a desk.]

Now that I'm back at work, I present another of my Rare Objects from Space History for #tbt. This is a model of the Cassini spacecraft, mounted in the centre of what I can only think to describe as a gimbal. The high gain antenna is pointed toward the bottom of the photo. The model was distributed to instrument teams to aid them with pointing design. It can be rotated around three axes within the gimbal. Each circle of rotation is marked in degrees, so that from a set of numbers indicating its orientation (eg "RA & dec"), an instrument engineer can work out which way the spacecraft is pointing.

I have no idea when it was originally given to our team but it predates me joining the Cassini project (ca 2006).
 
 
Current Music: john finnemore's souvenir programme - s2e1
 
 
20 July 2017 @ 09:04 am
It's challenge time!

Comment with Just One Thing you've accomplished in the last 24 hours or so. It doesn't have to be a hard thing, or even a thing that you think is particularly awesome. Just a thing that you did.

Feel free to share more than one thing if you're feeling particularly accomplished!

Extra credit: find someone in the comments and give them props for what they achieved!

Nothing is too big, too small, too strange or too cryptic. And in case you'd rather do this in private, anonymous comments are screened. I will only unscreen if you ask me to.

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19 July 2017 @ 07:46 pm
Actually worked a bit on the Writey Thing for the first time, I think, since April.

I somehow drabbled. This is pure setting-background scenery-brainstorming sense-detail, came out in second person for no particular reason, dunno if it will be in the story, but I have got to be writing on the regular, I need that habit and that mode of expression. I'll take it.

Mentions food, wilderness. Here it is.

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Current Mood: okay
 
 
19 July 2017 @ 07:09 pm

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got sucked into computerland for a bit

going for a walk

will check things when I get back
 
 
Current Mood: busy
 
 
19 July 2017 @ 07:23 am
Welcome to Wednesday and time to tackle the thing that has been lurking and needs to be done. What will it be? What is that PITA of a thing? Care to share, we're here for you and will be virtually behind you with all the encouragement you need.

In need of a little challenge to get you to start something? My challenge to you today is to check on the fridge. Depending on your energy levels and time allowance, select what's most appropriate for you. Remember if you do want to break it up or end up having more energy/time that you initially expected, you can always come back and do another step later today (or tomorrow).

Step 1 - Open the fridge and do a quick check for anything out of date and needing to go.
Step 2 - Spend a bit more time and do a thorough check to the back of shelves/bottom of drawers etc and make sure that you've checked everything in there - take mental note of anything that needs using quickly.
Step 3 - Starting with the top shelf, take everything out, lift out the shelf and clean it, dry it, replace it and put back in a more organised fashion - you may at this point realise that some things would ideally be in a different fridge location, whether it can be moved may depend upon there being space in its ideal location.
Step 4 - If you've still got energy/time, repeat with next shelf
Repeat Step 3 if you wish, until all shelves/drawers and the little door shelves have been checked and cleaned. If you can, as you go, wipe down the inside top and walls of the fridge as well with a cloth and some sort of light cleaner to get rid of any lurking invisible unwanted life forms. If you are tackling just a shelf at a time, don't get the top/walls too wet so that no cleaner runs down onto food stored lower in the fridge.

Remember that there is no obligation to do this challenge and also even if you do start it, it doesn't have to be done all in one go - a shelf a day for the week would be just as wonderful if you wanted to tackle it that way.

So with that I shall say goodbye (I'm not back until fairly late tonight, so please do cheer each other along), good luck with whatever you decide to tackle and a reminder that the optional challenge is OPTIONAL and also does not have to be completed as the WHOLE task - step 1 is a success, as is any other step. Look after yourselves, remember to think of your rewards for completing any personal pain in the tuckus tasks and let us know how you get along.
 
 
19 July 2017 @ 12:30 pm
Today's prompt is "that's not what you said".
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18 July 2017 @ 08:59 pm
Petted FOUR cats on neighborhood walk this morning. Porch Cat, Calico Neighbor Cat, the little bitty mostly-white calico who seems to be their neighbor and rival, and a black and slightly-tuxedo cat out for a walk with his person.

Did a bit of chores of the paperwork-y sort, and communicated reasonably well with S about chores’n’stuff.

Sent my sibling B a picture of me with my genderqueer-flag-striped cat-face button!

Today met up with the excellent [personal profile] kengr at Powell’s City of Books in the afternoon. We had a great conversation. Hooray for people I like to talk to actually living somewhere nearish! Did not buy ALL the things though I was tempted. Also I got a couple of books by C.J. Cherryh, who is a very good writer. Mwahahaha.

Had a great walk. [Content note: Exercise, food, brain weirdness, body weirdness] Read more... )

Found some things that might could be useful while walking. Made tentative plans/options for hopefully-productive tomorrow.
 
 
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18 July 2017 @ 06:58 pm

⌈ Secret Post #3849 ⌋

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18 July 2017 @ 08:32 am
It's challenge time!

Comment with Just One Thing you've accomplished in the last 24 hours or so. It doesn't have to be a hard thing, or even a thing that you think is particularly awesome. Just a thing that you did.

Feel free to share more than one thing if you're feeling particularly accomplished!

Extra credit: find someone in the comments and give them props for what they achieved!

Nothing is too big, too small, too strange or too cryptic. And in case you'd rather do this in private, anonymous comments are screened. I will only unscreen if you ask me to.

Go!